my Past.Now.Future

[Past——sweet memory about University]
I come to NanJing to attend my University in July 2004.That year,I was a shy and know-nothing little girl.That was also my third time to NanJing,everything and everyone is stange to me.Mum sent me to school and then left,leaving me alone in the completely unknow enviroment.
The time of University life gone by day by day,and I had so many home buddies(闺中密友) and sworn followers(死党).That was a enjoyable and unforgettable time,it always reminded me of doing a good and excellent student,girl,even worker in the futrue days.
I learnt a lot,and grew up a lot.
In my last year of University,I took the entrance of postgraduate examination.I made great effort to review,and I was also full of hope and exceptation.When the result went out,I hardly believe the fact.Yeah...I failed.
The next times,I was hunting for job like my many schoolmates.But it is not easy to find a well-contend job.At last,I worked in a software company,though I was not interested in it.But I had no idea that time,and everything was terrible for me.
[Now——New-brand life]
After working in the company,my life had experienced great changs.I am stranded and sometimes land myself in deep troubles.I don't understand the technology well,and I don't like writing program.I hate facing computer everyday.
Besides complainning my situation,I find the salary also can't satisfy my basic requirement.I am so depressed and sadness.I don't have enough money to pay my house rent,and also can't go shopping and buy beautiful clothes.I can't erasure the rough and penniless memories forever.
Since now,my life have stepped into the line and everything seems to become good for me.But that terrible memoriey often reminds me that I should fight,and strive for more good life!
Many time,I am so confused and puzzled.I can't know what should I do and How can I do to change this situation.I work as a computer programmer,which make me get freaked out(抓狂) and gloomy.I like English,and dream to enter a top-ranking forien enterprise.
I know it's a long way to realize my dream.But I will not give up.
[future——I am who I am]
The future is surrounded by densy fog,and I loose my way sometimes.But I believe I can,and I am who I am.